today i want to make a very personal post, i wanted to show you how i changed over the years, and the story behind that. Frist of all i show you a Picture.
what the ... ???!! yes this is me 2001. i was ugly and unpopular, and i had just 1 friend, it was the "scream" man....no just kidding, but i really just didnt had many friends, actually my class was bullying me. it was a hard time for me, cause i always came home crying, and this wasnt all, i couldnt go often to school because of a disease of my back i had since im 6 years old. so there was something more for bulling me even more, but this still wasent all, i had 3 back operations, they doctors had to fix my spine with screws and a splint. yes, now you know it, i have to take them till the end of my life, but that wasent my problem, cause when i came back to school, i was a cyborg, thats what they called me. so they had more reasons for bulling me. some day i realized when i was in vacation that i had to change myself, inside and outside. i bought contact lens, did blond highlights in my hair, and tryed to do make up. after the vacation ended i was going to school again, and look what happend ?! they was friendly ? Oô what the hell ? i mean really, what the hell is up in the people brains ?
i think thats the reason why i hate shallow people and bitches, cause they dont like you because you are a nice person NO they like you if you look good ( even if i didnt look good, i wasent that "creepy" like they would say, like in the picture on the top ^^;; )
but do you understand what i mean ? these people who act like that, are really ugly inside ! They dont like you for the person you are, they dont see if you are a nice person or have a good heart !
i even know such people atm too, when im dressing gyaru on the street they look at me and whisper or even the worst ones come to you and tell you you look like a barbie or lady gaga or even like a bitch ! they dont care if you are a bitch or not, NO you look like a bitch so YOU ARE !
another story is the figure, after i gave birth to my child i gained over 10 kg, and some people thought ohhh nice now i have something to bulling here so i say shes FAT, nice, but somehow its getting old, so i give a fuck about it. cause im not like this shallow people ! i dont look how you look like, your heart tells me if you are beautiful !
sorry if there are any error's, my english isnt perfect ^-^
i think i wrote enough about this topic. always remember that true beauty comes from within.
watch this Video to see how i changed over the years.
and please dont forget my Giveaway ^-^